Cancer wins again...claims my father

[1st amg]

It is with a heavy heart I write this, it is a place or platform I never expected to write in, but with TRF and it's band of brothers, I decided to vent, simply vent. At 4:16am this morning, my father finally was claimed by pancreatic cancer which spread to his liver three short weeks ago. Only ten days ago I called an ambulance to my parents home and then the cancer decided to give him massive blood clots which then caused two strokes in his brain stem. It was all but over since then. I never thought it was this ugly, it was a long ten days of slow painful death, it was awful to witness day and night.

My father was well respected in his community and business community. He was successful and popular and touched everyone's soul who net him. I learned how to be a good person, good father and good husband. My work ethic was installed by him. I am in a shock and daze, I can't believe he is gone. I know this was going to happen at one point when he was diagnosed 18 months ago. I am worried for my mother as her soul mate of 48yrs is gone. My heart aches for my kids 9 and 7, especially the older one who cried earlier this morning. He is named after his grandfather.

I hope I didn't waste anyone's time by reading this post, but if any of you have any sensible advice how to cope, please let me know. Thank you all


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