can't escape the bad luck

[andromeda160]

swapped the trans in my 323ci and the pump was bad so I went out and bought a 330ci to drive as I benched the 323 for a minute,had a riot in the 330 until I was on my way home from work one day and I was in detroit, ended up getting a gun pulled on me in stop and go traffic because some guy was road raging that I left a few carlengths ahead of me since i was driving a manual. then a few days later the 330ci just randomly sputtered out and died, all my diagnostic and mechanical expertise couldn't figure out what was wrong, was going to be atleast a week until it could get looked at so I went out and bought a volvo c70 to winter beat and drive in the meantime. got the LT version with the higher output engine, got it for a steal, only light on the dash was SRS(airbags) i figured I had never been in an accident and usually airbags are an easy reapair so I wasn't worried. paid for the car, grabbed lunch for my sisters birthday, went back to pick up the car and get it registered. pull out at a busy intersection with people waving me through, get completely blindsided by a f150 trying to make a yellow light or somthing(im not sure, i blacked out when he hit) last thing i remember hearing is tires screeching and me waking up on the side of the road with my car bent 6 inches to the right from the front corner panel up, the anti roll bars went off(it was a convertible) but the air bags didn't. suffered a stage 2/3 concussion and have been in worlds of pain the past week. been having anxiety attacks every day since, had constant migraines, and they couldn't give me any addictive pain killers because my previous alcohol abuse issues.

Hug your kids, let your family know you love them, and never take life for granted. you never know how it's going to go. 3 years ago to the day my fiance left me, i've been to rehab twice since, survived a suicide attempt, damn near got shot( second time in 2 years first was when I managed a pawn shop) and life will change at a moments notice when you least expect it. I think this was my wake up call, as much as it sucks, I could be in the ICU right now. as always, thanks for being a great group of supportive people, and sorry I just needed to vent, screwed alot of stuff up in my short 25 years here. but think it's probably good for everyone to reflect and realize that most of our problems aren't major, but when left unchecked they grow, and the weight gets quite heavy to carry.